I am sorry

Yet again, i hurt her. What's wrong with me? Like seriously, i am like so fucked up right now. Worrying bout whether she will recover. Sigh. I really dunno what to do already. That day was so memorable. It will never be erased from my memories. Those times we had in that shelter waiting for that rain to stop. How we ran through the rain. I was all drenched and cold. On the bus, you held my hand, that warmth you gave me really touched my heart. But i really dunno what decision shud i make. But yeah, you made that decision yesterday. I thought i wont feel anything. I was wrong. I couldnt sleep the whole night. I dun understand why. I even read your blog. I saw you much hatred you have for me. How much hurt i have done to you. Maybe what you said yesterday was right. Ok, i will leave you alone from now on. I hope you will forget me, i done you too much hurt. I dunno how to face you anymore. I only hope you will forgive me but i am doubting you will do so. I am sorry.